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Something Unexpected

Lastnite I went out, was invited to the residence of some friends who are prettymuch family to me; we've known each other for 15+ years (two sisters). It was a really good night, relax, drink some alcolols, good music, have a BBQ and just hang out. Felt good to do something normal again, one doesn't appreciate these things until they are no longer in ones life.

Unfortunately during the night I had an argument with one of the sisters because yeah... the reason isn't important but like most arguments it was a bit stupid. Anyway, I found something unusual and something that I hadn't expected to happen - I was overwhelmed by emotion. I lived for so many years without any emotion in my life and as a result I guess I'm just so out of touch that it did overwhelm me. I was hyperventilating and fighting back tears, no shame in that for me; I felt verymuch alive even though it was embarrassing. Looking back on it I can see causality, it's rather obvious that the response I had was a result of not experiencing emotion for so long my mind wasn't use to it; not able to handle it. That won't of course keep up, as I experience more and more emotion I will return to normal because I will once again be used to dealing with such things.

and if it's interesting... we made up and are friends which is important to me because she's a really cool chick and I do enjoy her company ;)

Posted by Travis at 08:04PM 23/01/2010 - View/Post Comments [7]

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Intelligence has its place in survival and in breeding but beyond that ours is a curse to our species. Knowing all this life must be pointless for me right? Wrong. Knowing these things gives me the clarity to recognize this world as my playground, this life as my dream. In meaninglessness I find freedom, the freedom I need to enjoy my time.
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Faced with some serious consequences of an indulgent lifestyle I decided it was time for a change. This site is primarily to serve as a means to record and track the progress of my primary focus right now - getting fit and healthy through exercise and healthy diet. By recording my progress I am able to measure how far I've come. It is also an outlet for my thoughts and an important record of the changes in my life; writing is a mixture of 'diary' and posts directed outward.

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Inga, Fabio, George & Gemma from Les Mills New Lynn. Possum. Last but not least my Father, Kerry.

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