Lastnite I went out, was invited to the residence of some friends who are prettymuch family to me; we've known each other for 15+ years (two sisters). It was a really good night, relax, drink some alcolols, good music, have a BBQ and just hang out. Felt good to do something normal again, one doesn't appreciate these things until they are no longer in ones life.

Unfortunately during the night I had an argument with one of the sisters because yeah... the reason isn't important but like most arguments it was a bit stupid. Anyway, I found something unusual and something that I hadn't expected to happen - I was overwhelmed by emotion. I lived for so many years without any emotion in my life and as a result I guess I'm just so out of touch that it did overwhelm me. I was hyperventilating and fighting back tears, no shame in that for me; I felt verymuch alive even though it was embarrassing. Looking back on it I can see causality, it's rather obvious that the response I had was a result of not experiencing emotion for so long my mind wasn't use to it; not able to handle it. That won't of course keep up, as I experience more and more emotion I will return to normal because I will once again be used to dealing with such things.

and if it's interesting... we made up and are friends which is important to me because she's a really cool chick and I do enjoy her company ;)